Child's Play

Ups and downs. Punches and kicks. Flowers and Gifts. Which is it? Confusion of the unknown. The fear of the future. The search of the true meaning of this World. Surrounded by children running a country of children that play dirty on the playground. Those who have mercy fall off the monkey bars and land in the mud. Those who are conniving push and pull to climb to the top. In the end, they slide down alone anyway. We are a species of copycats with an exception of a rare few. We follow in our parent's footsteps creating a never-ending cycle of bad behaviour through generations. The internet has come to change our ways, our misinterpretations, our loneliness and our inability to assess a situation without emotional involvement. The future is here, and yet the stubbornness is holding us back. Peter Pan possesses all of us. The clock is ticking. The future is waiting for us to become the people we are meant to be. We can't seem to rid of these useless thoughts that make our egos bleed, creating a wall of soldiers to protect us. How could we have become so emotionally unstable that we have built this devil called the "Ego". They say that ignorance is bliss, but do they know what it is like to be on the other side? To see yourself as not a self. The self is your own experience of phenomena, your very own perception, emotions and thoughts. How did those come into existence? By the outside world; the people that surround you, the situations you were lucky or unlucky to be part of. Appreciate that you are alive to be graced by those people who pass by your life teaching you extraordinary lessons. In return, you can share that knowledge. We humans have devoured this world whole. The fighting must stop, the selfishness must disappear. Look into yourself like you would look into the eyes of an animal. You should see all the things that you believe people can't see. Purity and loyalty. Stare at the evil that lurks in your thoughts, those addictive thoughts. Stare at it until it can no longer stare back, until it gives up and disappears. No one said it would be easy but it can be done. The pain that sticks like pins and needles in our hearts are all memories from the past. The past is history that exists only to teach us what to avoid and not to repeat. Holding a grudge can only hurt you more than anyone else. Your body is your home and your soul are the lights, you only have one for this lifetime, use it wisely. 

What to do with my life

I've been trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. Does it take so long to figure it out? Why does everyone seem like they know what they have to do, or they have a path that their parents give them. I don't know what I want to do. I know I like to Wakeboard, to travel, to be with loved ones, to try new crazy things. The second I am in contract with something I feel like I am suffocating. I have been Modelling for the past year for fun and I like it but I feel like I really want to use my degree. I want to create my own restaurant but I need to be pushed! I am so used to how life is right now but I am not entirely happy. I have been trying new recipes and I think I will join one of the markets like mercado to see what people think about them.
During Thanksgiving I invited a lot of friends over and family, I roasted and stuffed a huge Turkey, I made my special Blackened Chicken Alfredo Pasta, Meat Loaf, Mashed Potatoes, Asparagus, and Oatmeal cookies. My Dad said it was the best Turkey he has tasted and that made me so happy because he usually is very harsh with his compliments.
Usually everything I cook people enjoy, and I want to create innovative foods to make other people enjoy their meal! But I just got to get myself out there and START! But its so hard...I just got a commercial today and I am happy about it because I am making money, but I want to do something that will make my Dad proud of me...and he thinks modelling and acting is stupid and useless. It makes me sad that when I achieve something in this industry he thinks its dumb. So I am going to prove to him that I can be a business woman. And who knows, maybe I can make an amazing restaurant that people would love! I just have to take the first few steps. I could even start by selling food by delivery.
The first new recipe I want to try is Red Velvet Rice Krispy Treats!!! I'll post photos after I have tried it =). 

Pilot

Isabelle Collins

      WELCOME TO MY ISLAND! So, this is my first time writing a blog. I just saw 2 of my best friends again since 6 months and I was talking to them about what I should do with my life since I graduated university. Right now I am having time off but I can't help but think about it. So one of my friends Isabelle Collins told me that I should write a blog since I have time on my vacation, write about the things I've seen, my life, my thoughts, and my hobbies. I was like, "Why not?" If I have too much time on my hands I might go crazy on alcohol so its good to have a project. I asked them, "So how do I start this? What do I talk about?" and my friend Emily Langford 

Emily Langford

told me to write it as a diary, like I am writing it for my future self because if I think too much about what other people think about my blog it will change the way I write. I used to have a diary when I was a kid and it was a super thick book because I would write about what I did, what I thought and what I wanted to do every single day for a year or so. Unfortunately, I lost it, most likely a creepy ex-boyfriend stole it haha, maybe to figure out why I dumped him.

         I just graduated from university Glion Institute of Higher Education in Switzerland with a Bachelors degree of Arts in Hospitality Management and Marketing, this school is known to be one of the top hospitality schools in the world. 

Glion Institute of Higher Education, Switzerland

So now I am back in my home country in the Philippines for some vacation (I'm half American by the way). This, I think, is the most stressful time I have had in my life. In elementary you're happy, life is easy everything taken care of and you get to color and have recess, snack breaks, girl scouts, sleepovers, life was a cake. Middle school got a little tougher but was still bearable. HIGH SCHOOL, when the alcohol starts, this was fun but you know you just want to get over with it and get to college so you don't have to listen to your parent's rules anymore and where you can just go wild on your own. BUT when you get to college it gets TOUGHER - dissertations/IRS and all, and all that freedom you get? Its not as sweet as when you have rules to defy! The risks you take jumping out your window to go to a party in high school are over, you can just call a friend, have them pick you up and have a drink at a bar, lately I feel a lack of need for alcohol since my dad doesn't really care anymore, which is good. I just think, "WHY DIDN'T HE JUST LET ME DO WHAT I WANTED WHEN I WAS YOUNGER!" Well I ended up doing it anyways secretly. Oh I went crazy when I was a teenager, come on I was in the Philippines you can do WHATEVER you want at any age really. When I was in university in Europe we'd take a car to France, fly to Ibiza, Barcelona, Sweden, and many other countries during the weekends to party! Anyways, as a student in university we feel safe because we are just studying, we can skip class if we want, nothing is asked from us except to finish your assignments. BUT ONCE YOU GRADUATE??? Which I did on December 9, 2011,

Graduation day with my Dad

just over a week ago, you get STRESSED OUT! Because its like What do I do with my life now? I can choose what continent I want to live in, I can choose the city I live in, I can choose the path I want to take, so many choices, so where do I start? During vacation, my dad wants me to reconstruct his marketing team in the Manila office for our resort, Eagle Point Resort,

Eagle Point Resort Pool

Eagle Point Resort Restaurant

he also wants me to follow around the manager to advice any good innovative ideas, and train employees. I've worked in Hotel Arts Ritz Carlton Barcelona for 6 months as an intern so I have more of a professional experience in Hotels. I love Eagle Point Resort, its like a second home to me, my dad built it when I was a baby and now its gotten so big, but you know, old people, so old-fashioned. Whats new these days? OH Social Media! So I am going to help the marketing team start up on several social media websites, you know the usual, facebook, twitter, youtube, etc.

     Even though I love Eagle Point I don't want to stay in the Philippines that long, I get lazy here, I lose creativity, I stop cooking and learning new recipes and I stop doing things on my own, as you know its a developing country, so we have maids and drivers to do everything for us. In the states some people frown upon this, but they really shouldn't, it gives millions of people jobs without education AND they become our family AND we take care of their families too, such as pay for their children's schools etc., well depending on how well off you are, you know? My drivers and maids have been with me since I was born! They are the only ones who cry when I leave haha. OH AND also my dad works for Baker and Mckenzie law firm so he has won a lot of cases for Shangri-La hotel in Makati so they owe him big time, so he and the help of my school (good connections you know) will get me a job there just for a few months. THE REAL REASON I am staying in the Philippines for at least 6 months or so is to see my baby brother grow up since I have been gone most of his 3 and a half years of life, his name is Ramoncito =) Soooo cuuuuute.

Sooooo anyways, MY POINT for starting this blog is that I finished yet another chapter of my life, and thought its a good idea to keep track of the new life I begin. I don't know how this works and if people will read this, but it would be awesome if I know people are interested in what I talk about. I have so much to talk about but ill leave it to another time. I'll talk about my past a lot. My blog can be a good place to get recipes that I try (I love cooking, just learned a year ago but learned quickly and have hosted several dinners with guests reaching over 20 people), the blog will also tell stories of my travels around the world, all over the USA, living in Barcelona (I know the best spots in case anyone wants to have a personalized concierge ;) ), places in Europe that I have traveled, thoughts that I may have on a daily basis AND I'll add videos that I make (one of my hobbies). I usually never finish anything I start so I hope this lasts! Keep a track of my progress in life. To whoever is reading this, get ready for the roller coaster confusing life of Jules.